i wasted now
  i think of you
  why do i promote
  such self abuse?
  what should have been
  what we could have said
  doesn't matter now
  hit the road instead
      shut down
  back out
  refuse to let you see
  inside
  my heart is weak
  and oh so hazy
      confused me for
  the guy next door
  i saw your hand
  then felt the floor
  crawled inside
  to apologize
  you threw me out
  and then shut the door
      run out
  break up
  the sorry state i'm in
  all hope
  is gone
  cause you think i'm a big wimp